Lets look at the amount of work that the slacker called Wang Yufei has to settle. (:

PPT for English AA
Compile essay for English AA
Sec 3 math notes II
Sec 3 Chinese notes II
Bio fertility notes
Chemistry Electrolysis notes
Physics Temperature + Pressure notes
Chinese Lit group work thingum
SS notes

WSC notes (READ THEM DAMN IT)
Debate books (READ THEM DAMN IT)
Find some random timing to discuss Romance of Three Kingdoms with my dad (before he eats me up)

AH THIS IS ANNOYINGZ.

Dang it lah, if not for stupid season, I won't have the last three things on the list. Freak the woman manzsx. :@

Okayokayokay English and Chinese Lit here I come.

I'm gonna work on WSC and Debate now and leave the comp for a while :D

Song rec;

#60th. (: How about a song rec! :D

Footprints in the sand - Leona Lewis

You walked with me,
Footprints in the sand,
And helped me understand,
Where I'm going,

You walked with me,
When I was all alone,
With so much unknown,
Along the way,
Then I heard you say,

I promise you,
I'm always there,
When your heart is filled with sorrow,
And despair, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

I see my life flash across the sky,
So many times have I been so afraid.
And just when I, have thought I lost my way,
You gave me strength to carry on,
That's when I heard you say,

I promise you
I'm always there
When your heart is filled
With sorrow and despair
And, I'll carry you
When you need a friend
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

When I'm with you,
Well I know you've been there,
And I can feel you when you say,

I promise you (you)
I'm always there
When your heart is filled (when your heart)
With sadness and despair (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend (need a friend)
You'll find my footprints in the sand. (I promise you)

Ohh. (I'm always there)

When your heart is full of
Sadness and despair, (and despair)
I'll carry you when you need a friend. (I'll carry you)
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Uhh mmhhh.

Leona Lewis (choir)

And of course, the poem (:

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.

This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.

So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, you have not been there for me?”

The Lord replied,
“The times when you have seen only one set of footprints in the sand,
is when I carried you.”

-Mary Stevenson)

PRAISE JESUS! (:

I'm blogging illegally in school! :D As usual. YMCA later for SL and I'll be home at like dunno which donkey hour. So I think it would be good if I do my homework. Sigh I'm here actually to do this random quiz but I somehow ended up here hmm.
OKAY OKAY OKAY I promise to go off soon.
Considering that there's much to do.
I don't feel like doing Chinese RAWR. And I think I should finish the music reading asap hmm.
Having said all that, I should go off. (:

Waitwaitwait.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DE! (L)

Game was alright woman decided that maybe she should use the stats that we did so here I am compiling everything ah ah so many things to do stats clit crazy's girl present + card tuition wsc debate things AHHHHHHHHHH okay I think I'm going to leave the comp on for MH only byebye I think I will not run and get fat for just today AH WHY DO I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO DO annoying byebyebye.

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHNEW! :D

I feel like murdering WuYou now cos her card almost made me cry. ):
(Er. Not literally.)
No matter what happens, I'll love my awesome centers forever. (:

I thought training today was quite fun. Too.
Batchmates are loved ttm too (:

Nothing much. I think I lost my planner. I'm sad. ): And I don't feel like studying. I'm having a headache.

Alright, bye.

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHANG KAIWEN DEAR FRIEND! (L)
Promise me nothing can get between us, and hope today has been awesome! (L)

As I looked through my archives,
I really miss playing and having fun with my batch.

Which is basically impossible now.

Happy Birthday Cheryl. (:

I think this is one of the funniest convos in history:
Y: Hey do you want to share present for Kaiwen present? (okay I think this is very obvious) It's on the 25th (thank me manz free publicity) and I was thinking of getting her coloured pencils (:
W: O.o I have a box of brand new colour pencils! Which I will not use alr. Oh ya and you owe me 15 bucks from obs shirt! Haha.
Y: Oh okay! Yay we can give that to her heehee. You know you got the wrong shirt...i wanted the polo tee haha. But nevermind! Eh give me that as bdae la lol. (Sorry lah cash low.)
W: Yay okay! :) oh really. Oh. Oh yea your bd was during my obs right! [No] wonder these days I was like whens yufei's bd ar where got so late de? Hehe ps. (Awwwww. But well. A bit blur lah hor. xP BUT I LOVE YOU ANYWAY! ;D)
Y: Lol okay. So do i still have to pay you? Lol. (Don't mind the shamelessness tvym)
W: OOOH OH OH OH! Thats what you meant! Haha sorry I a bit blur blur. :) (sure boh, a bit. xP) ya ok then your bd present!:) happy belated 16th birthday!:D
Y: Lol haha thanks. (: and thanks for the shirt hahaha.

This is what we call CLASSIC WUYOU. (:
But whatever crazy stunts she do, she'll still be my dearest bestie (L)

Anyway I thought the studying plan was quite failed with AHEMsemiAHEM waking up when I was about to leave Bugis. Well it was spent mostly talking about WSC. And I MIGHT BE GOING FOR WSC. Me happy very :D I'll work really hardddddd heehee.
Anyway back to gathering. As in, if you counted that as a gathering, it was quite good :D YAY ME LOVES HMCA TEAM. ;D Meet up soon! :D

Alright, it's getting late, I'm sleeping.

So. It has been indeed wonderful to feel that one more week of school has passed (:
And my timetable has very obviously failed me.

So how about a list of things to do over the amazingly short weekend? :D
English: AA research. Like a ton of it.
Maths: Assignment
Chinese: Si Han, summary of last year's stuff
(Amazing I don't have any Sci or Lit homework yay)
SS: Read the damn thing
RS: Analysis of the last two questions
SL: Damn proposallllll I freaking hate mercy relief laaaaa.

And I really hope tomorrow's studying will be pretty much conducive and productive! :D

Anywayz. This week has been bad. But well ended off on a good note. I thought training with CDiv was much more relaxed. And since I don't really have to bother about how well I play; just to enjoy the sport and lose some extra fats. So I guess was quite a good one.
Oh, and they've won both games. Yup. Anything else, go ask them yourself.

And special mention to BESTIE! Thanks for being here for me this entire week. Love you dearest! (L)

Alright. Maybe I should do something about my AA.

I think it's time to deviate from my personal tragedy and look into the tragedy of someone else.

Nope, I don't really know her personally, but I'm equally sad. I know she's an awesome teacher. I remember she interviewed my for PSB. And yes, her smiles. I will never forget how they managed to calm me down so so much. Though I didn't get in, but I clearly remember enjoying every moment of the interview.
And all those times that she invigilated us and everything else. It just shows how nice she is.
But life's unfair. In Chinese there's a saying that the good people don't survive long.
But I truly believe it's because the Lord feels that this is not a place for someone as nice as her. She's too nice to go through the troubles, the wrath and everything of this world.
And though she might not be a Christian, but I still believe the Lord will take care of her, because she's just so special, so...NICE.

Damn, just thinking of ljx told us about her, how she's so approachable, how she has so many brave yet practical dreams,
I'll feel this close to crying.

Friends, stay strong. She's with the Lord now; and He will protect her from all harm.
Anything, 8 numbers is the trick. I promise to always be there for you! Maybe not to solve your problems, maybe not to bring her back to life.
But I promise to lend a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. Cross my heart.

God, we send her with love to You, and we believe You will take really really good care of her. (: Even in this situation, I still want to praise You, Lord.

I have changed my opinion.
I told you that I don't want to do it anymore.
But since you force it on me, I think I shall compromise.

Nope, I'm not going to go there and be a monkey and disrupt your training.
I'm just going to go there and embarrass the shit outta you.
I'm going to be stronger, faster and more accurate than ALL YOUR PLAYERS ADD TOGETHER.

Maybe not this training,
Maybe not the next,
Maybe not in 10 trainings.

But I believe, one day I'll make you REGRET the decision you've made on 16th January, 2010.

Hey guys.

I know I am freaking you guys out, appearing tired, restless, sad, whatever. I'm sorry. I'm really trying to be more positive, but I just can't. Really. It seems like this BIG part of me has gone wrong and my life's screwed. I don't want to stop going for training, stop believing and stop being with my team. I don't like it, really. Though I'm not bonded with them, but it really hurts just thinking of them.
I am tired of carrying that face saying that no, I don't care at all. When in fact, I do.
But I am also afraid of letting my heart out to hope again. I don't want to fall as hard as I am now. I feel broken. Literally. I don't want to break again.
But having said that, I'm really thankful for all your concerns (: I know you guys are concerned, and I know you guys are quite freaked out and don't really know what to do with me, but I'm trying my best to be fine. Well at least, look fine and feel fine. But I guess I really need more time.
Whatever. Do anything man. I just want to stop screwing up my life.

Serve you right yufei. Who the hell asked you to dream so high? Didn't you know that the higher you dream, the harder your fall? Who are you to blame anyone huh. Useless thing.

I just realised that one of the reason why I've been crying so much,
Is not just because I can't play, not because I'm anguish, or whatever,
But because from the moment I've decided to do it,
It means I've to force myself to cut off from all of them.
ALL of them.

I really don't think I can do it.

I really didn't want it to end this way.
All the hopes, all the dreams, now broken by the cruel reality.
Damn it, it hurts.

And nope, I'm never gonna get over it.

Shut up, get lost.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUFEI!
Doesn't it feel wonderful to wish thyself happy birthday? :D
Okay sorry. Cut the egoness.

Anyway. Really happy today :D

I want to thank JULIA, JASMINE, LINGZHI, SEMI for staying up to send me an sms at 12mn :D
I want to thank my AWESOME CLASSMATES for all their well wishes :D
I want to thank AMANDA, ZIEN, ANQI, CHARMAINE, JASMINE, GERMAINE (basically my sort of a gang) for the group hug :D
I want to thank all those who gave my presents; Zhang Rui, Shiqi, Anqi, Verna, Mengdi, Emily, Lingzhi, Jiayi, RebZhang, Germaine XIEXIE they are really loved and appreciated (:
I want to thank JIAYI AND LINGZHI for spending the afternoon with me attempting to celebrate my birthday :D
I want to thank DADDY AND MUMMY for the awesome meal and just being there to celebrate my birthday with me (:
I want to thank THE SPECIAL ONES for their facebook wall posts (:
I want to thank EVERYONE ELSE who remembered. (:

Okay darn I'm supposed to post a picture of all my gifts but I can't find the damn cable D:

You're gonna say I missed Someone out.
Nope, I didn't. He's grand finale (:

I want to thank GOD for this privilege to celebrate my 16th birthday. (:
For without Him, I won't have came to this Earth.
For without Him, I won't have survived thus far.
For without Him, I won't have been to where I am now.
For without Him, I won't have been who I am.

Thank You God, for making my day. AMEN!

On a side note. HMCA debuts TOMORROW! ;D

TOMORROW IS AN IMPORTANT DAY. :D
Don't ask me why I'm so ego.

Anyway today was okayish nothing much happened ponned training cos I seriously haven't fully recovered and have screwed up the selections for this bilingual speech competition thingum blahhhh but I still hope I somehow miraculously get in hahaha.

Anyway thanks rebzhang I think I'm going for another HMCA-ish conference soon hurhur I'm super excited about HMCA btw though I think I'm like the least prepared whatever blah that shall be on my agenda after my nap :D

Anyway. BELIEVER IS THE LOVE MANZSX. I totally adore Believer and I truly believe that I'll see a breakthrough in both me serving and personal worship. PRAISE THE LORD!

Alright. Byebye.

Don't ask me why I'm at home blogging. I'm sick that's why I'm not at training. And I left training because coach promised not to teach anything new since it's like selection trials today. I thought that short training I had was bad. Kinda miss awesome centers I bet they're having fun at OBS. Class today was okay just a lot of homework. I hope I can still go to school tomorrow, especially tuition and 1st believer course. I hope I get Jasmine. I have so many things to do, but the first is to take med and sleep for a while first. Please wish me luck that I will be able to recover fast and finish all that I have to finish. Happy Birthday Charmaine (10Jan) (:

Training was really really tough. Like I really almost died. First time did I felt so much like collapsing on the ground instead of running a mere 5mins tsktsk. Ah wellz. Bathed in school, signed up for believers, had mos for lunch and went for HMCA.

Damn, I'm missing my HMCA teammates already D:

Hey team,
It has been like close to one entire month since the time we've started being together as one team, training and killing brain cells over gigantic issues. I still remember not really talking to many of you until the team lunch. Yeah I think that really bonded us together! Yeah but sadly, now that we're getting much more bonded, HMCA is ending. Gosh time really flies! D: Yknow, sometimes I don't want it all to end; I'd really rather it goes on forever.
Why do all good things come to an end D:
Seriously, I really almost cried when Mr Leong was giving us his vision for us, hur.
"You know, when you guys first enter into the hall, people may not notice you. They may even look down on you. Like who are these weird people in vests? But once they hear you all speak, tell will be so SCARED by you guys and would want to find out who you guys really are. (:"
Ah D:
I don't care. Even after HMCA, we must still have team outings. Night Safari ftw! :D Cos the love doesn't end here.
CHENHUI CHUIYANG CLARENCE DAYNA DESIRAE GLORIA KITLEA REBJ REBZ SEMI SHANICE SHERLYN YIWEI (L) YOU GUYS FOREVER!

I'm celebrating my birthday tomorrow, yay :D

I thought today was quite good. But not the amount of homework that's piling rawr. Chem was super funny. Lunch at pastamania with Anqi and Charmaine (: Training was not very tiring cos it had been raining. Season's starting in 2 weeks and I'm super scared/stress that 1. I won't make it into team again and 2. if I actually did I won't be able to perform well and thus bringing the whole team down.

Ugh. I think I'll just have to leave it all to God who's ALWAYS GREAT! :D

On that note, my mum's finally verdict: GREEN LIGHT to BELIEVERS! ;D
I'm telling you, BEYOND HAPPY OMGOMGOMG. Thank God, thanks mum too! :D I think my testimony touched her. (: I'm so glad that He was there to put the right words into my mouth heehee. PRAISE GOD! ;D

Oh, and I am super glad that we've made up. (: Like really really happy and relieved. Can we promise each other that nothing will ever come between us again? Please?
You won't ever know how much you mean to me, friend. Thought nothing could come between us, but something eventually did.
Really hope that would be the last time. Lets make that true! :D
Love you, friend (:

And yes, what will I do without you guys, my awesome centers? (: Really. We'll be best friends for life. BFF! (L)

And to end off,
(8th Jan) HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JULIA MY PRETTY FRIEND! ;D ;D ;D I think you were really happy today. Stay cheerful! (L)

Oh, and (6th Jan) HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHONG. (:
Just a tradition. It's Julia's tomorrow :D

No I didn't run away from school. Third day of school only and I'm having massiveeeee headache. Migraines. It has been close to a gazillion years since I last had them and they had to come back. Annoyingz.

Team wasn't announced after all. And yesterday was kinda my official worst day so far. Whatever I don't feel like elaborating. Cos I've cooled down to the point that I'm starting a cold war. I don't really care whether you care or not yeah. I'm just starting it cos I don't want to talk to people like you. Okay yes, my second enemy?

Oh and we've got homework already. How excellent. And talking about which I should remember to ask my parents to print things out.

Shit the headache is coming back again. What the hell is wrong with my head rawr. I'm going to sleep again bye.

First day of school was good. It's nice seeing new people and grats much to De for getting vchair AGAIN haha. Sitting next to Gio and De now. (: Poor Gio, when season starts, she's gonna sit on her own ):

Went for believer assessment today. I was quite amazed that I actually managed to get into advanced worship dynamics I and got assessed by Caleb's teacher haha very funny we talked a little about Caleb too made me pretty jealous of him cos it was apparent that she was really proud of Caleb (well partially because of me HEEHEEHEE ;D) And now I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to go for it cos my mum's so wishy-washy I think she may change her mind again ah.

Anyway there's TRAINING and LESSONS (like DAMN LIT) tomorrow I'm as good as dead how awesome. I think team's gonna be announced tomorrow. Damn. I always hate moments like this. Really hope I won't wind up crying or walking off. Ugh I'm super not looking forward to tomorrow. Seriously.
D: Someone save me.

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Damn it damn it damn it I hate it when life's filled with so much problems.

You know how much I wanted to make you proud in the past. I used to practice everyday just because you said so. I used to try so hard figuring out the chords that I go to sleep dreaming about them. Just because you said so.
Then you left me, left my life and left me crying, hurting; you torn me apart.
And when I was finally healing, telling myself it's okay, I can go on without you, you came back.
So what now. How are you going to expect me to trust you again?
How do you expect me to do you proud again?

You used to a nice person in my point of view.
But with that line of yours, that's it.
No I'm no longer fuming mad at you.
Just disappointed. And hurt.
Cos those words cut like a knife,
And the scars remain forever.

I feel like screaming.

#1 There's school tomorrow (!!) though it's gonna be a lame day.
#2 I'm going for believer assessment tomorrow though I might not be getting believer anymore.
#3 I have tuition tomorrow ):
#4 I don't know if there's training tomorrow awesome.
#5 I'm not wearing house shirt tomorrow.
#6 Wii is tiring to play.
#7 I'm going to school tomorrow with Lingzhi.
#8 Bye. I WANT BELIEVERS LAAAA D:

Batch lunch with Mr Ang today. Was quite fun I guess. Reached slightly late, talked and walked around Wisma with Anna Angie Li Yong Iliana, met Mr Ang, Ivana and De at Crystal Jade, Went for Alvin and the Chipmunks and homed.

[will insert picture once IVANA LOW uploads the pictures (:]

#1 I love Theodore FREAKING CUTE.
#2 Thanks to Mr Ang for the lunch (:
#3 Thanks batchmates and Mr Ang for the day (:

Idk what's wrong with me. Mood's screwed. Maybe it was the things we talked about.
Maybe it was those things that happened, those things that still casts shadows in my life.

Idk. Just think that it's like the last lap for us. Just doesn't feel right to stop running now.
Maybe I'm reading too much. But I don't feel that determination anymore, especially comparing to the old days.
So it was really not just me.
And please tell me I'm not the only one who still wants to get it, at this point.
Please. Run this last lap with me.
Together.

On a side note, democrats are evil. Sorry but they are. Hell difficult to craft out a bill from their point-of-view damn.

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Stop living in the past, yufei. It is killing you, devouring you bit by bit.
It's time you give yourself a break from all the shadows over your life and move on.

Yes, I was this close to tears again today.
Damn it.

I have some things to tell you.

1. MY MUM'S ACTUALLY LETTING ME TAKE BELIEVERS OHMYGOSH ONE OF MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS FULFILLED BEYOND HAPPY ;D

2. The school's timetable is BEYOND screwed. Like SERIOUSLY we have crazy teachers so many I don't know let see
English ANGULLIA but nevermind I still have TLL.
Maths Wee-LimYH WHO THE HELL IS THIS I MISS MR LEEK ALR D:
Chinese TeoCH PLEASE JUST MURDER ME.
Bio ChiamCL WHO IS THIS LAAAAA.
Chem NgKL (please tell me it's just me but WHO THE PONG IS THISSS.)
Physics SharonSiow Old teacher yes heard she's nice but idk who she is so. No comments.
CLit LiJX please murder me again.
SS Azahar I heard he can't teach.
PE Desmond Hi De we're as good as dead it's either me or you who's gonna be the PE rep.

3. HMCA team rocks (: Seriously, I enjoyed today's lunch and company and I think we've definitely bonded. GO TEAM! Love you guys (:

4. Bye.

Thanks Huizhen for the song and the encouragement :D

Meredith Andrews - You're Not Alone

I search for love, when the night came,
And it closed in, I was alone,
But you found me, where I was hiding,
And now I'll never ever be same,
It was the sweetest voice,
That called my name saying

You're not alone, For I am here,
let me wipe away your every fear,
My love I've never left your side,
I have seen you through the darkest night,
And I'm the one that who's loved you all your life,
All of your life

You cry your self to sleep, cause the hurt is real,
and the pain cuts deep, all hope seems lost,
with heart ache your closest friend,
and everyone else long gone,
you've had to face the music on your own,
but there is a sweeter song that calls you home, saying

You're not alone, For I am here,
let me wipe away your every tear,
My love I've never left your side,
I have seen you through the darkest nights,
And I'm the one who's love you all your life,
All your life

Faithful and true... Forever,
For my love will carry you...

You're not alone,
for I... I am here,
let me wipe away every fear...
Oh yeah, My love I've never left your side,
I have seen you through your darkest night,

Your darkest nights,
And I'm the one that's loved you all your life,
All of your life

PRAISE GOD. (: Always there, never leaving me alone. (L)

Good way to start 2010, huh.