First day of school was good. It's nice seeing new people and grats much to De for getting vchair AGAIN haha. Sitting next to Gio and De now. (: Poor Gio, when season starts, she's gonna sit on her own ):

Went for believer assessment today. I was quite amazed that I actually managed to get into advanced worship dynamics I and got assessed by Caleb's teacher haha very funny we talked a little about Caleb too made me pretty jealous of him cos it was apparent that she was really proud of Caleb (well partially because of me HEEHEEHEE ;D) And now I'm really keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to go for it cos my mum's so wishy-washy I think she may change her mind again ah.

Anyway there's TRAINING and LESSONS (like DAMN LIT) tomorrow I'm as good as dead how awesome. I think team's gonna be announced tomorrow. Damn. I always hate moments like this. Really hope I won't wind up crying or walking off. Ugh I'm super not looking forward to tomorrow. Seriously.
D: Someone save me.

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Damn it damn it damn it I hate it when life's filled with so much problems.

You know how much I wanted to make you proud in the past. I used to practice everyday just because you said so. I used to try so hard figuring out the chords that I go to sleep dreaming about them. Just because you said so.
Then you left me, left my life and left me crying, hurting; you torn me apart.
And when I was finally healing, telling myself it's okay, I can go on without you, you came back.
So what now. How are you going to expect me to trust you again?
How do you expect me to do you proud again?

You used to a nice person in my point of view.
But with that line of yours, that's it.
No I'm no longer fuming mad at you.
Just disappointed. And hurt.
Cos those words cut like a knife,
And the scars remain forever.

I feel like screaming.