fulfilling

DIE LE DIE LE DIE LE.

I'm literally waiting for my mum to start screaming at me.

Maybe even a slap or two.

:/

Haiz, what to do? I shall NEVER touch her iPhone from now on. :/

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Had a pretty much fulfilling and productive day with Annabelle dearest (L) at Library @ Esplanade today (: Though I really think socks in some people's mouths would do the trick. Irritating.

Thanks dear! See you tomorrow haha (: You're awesome! :D

I was staring at myself in the MRT mirror today for the entire train ride. Somehow, I saw you in my own face. And there. Opens the floodgate for memories. I realised, I miss you. For so long, I have been caught up in that tangle with him, I sorta forgot about you. I thought I was over you, since two years ago. Only today did I truly realise that it was just me lying to myself. I didn't want to be just friends, and I knew that myself, perfectly well. I didn't felt that feeling, that strong, because you had never left my side. As a friend, as a brother, whatever. I knew you loved me, and I knew I was safe with you. I knew I could always depend on you. And I had never expected it all to end. When they were all taken away from me. When he left. When you should have left. You didn't. You stayed on, maybe just a little while longer. I don't know why you stopped. Whatever. What's the point of holding on to so many things? I won't get them back anyway, at least not back to well, normal. Maybe it's because it makes me feel alive. Ironic, yes, because you are making me die inside. And maybe out too. Or maybe it's one of those double-miss virus, yet again.

I want to sleeeeeeep bye. Oh my mum didn't kill me. Yet.