On 11/02, it was one of those jamming sessions like before. Though it was only 5 minutes, I enjoyed it, in solitary with you. But when it ended, I felt pulled back to reality. Oh, I enjoyed worship that night, very much too. Telepathy forthewin (:

On 16/02, you gave me a handshake when I asked for one. I was very much pleasantly surprised cos I thought you'd just ignore me. But you didn't so I decided to record down every nice thing you are doing to me.

On 17/02, you replied my sms. Yet another pleasant surprise.

On 20/02, you looked me in the eye and kicked the ball into my legs in a playful manner. But it was then I cried because of you so I just ignored you. I know that just made you feel that I have attitude problems. But well. Go ahead cos I don't really feel anything already. And on the other hand sorry for ignoring you.

On 21/02 (today), you told me that everything has been a misunderstanding. Which explains why you've been trying hard to revert back to where we left off, like what I have used to do.
I was very happy when I heard it. Or should I say, very relieved. But still there's a problem.
I can't bring myself to trust you again.
I wrote about you in my Chinese compo and I agree with what I wrote; wounds heal, but scars remain forever.
I'm sorry.